I hate driving now. It gives me waaaay too much time to think about myself, my life, and what a huge sham it all really is. That's the word of the day, children: sham. S-H-A-M. Something that is not what it purports to be; a spurious imitation; fraud or hoax; to make a false show of something; pretend.

In other news, I feel like an idiot for trusting my feelings. I no longer have a real reason for getting out of bed in the morning. And no, this is not just because I'm very very tired. I've been that all my [fake] life...


Anonymous said...

why are you a terrible person?

Madeleine said...

we should have a party

i feel fake and i have no reason to get out of bed too!
you know, the weirdest thing for me is that i am so completely different from the person i was a year ago. COMPLETELY DIFFERENT. it is so strange..